Gradually challenging my intolerance to legumes to see improvement & sharing my meal with the poor

I'm gradually challenging my intolerance to legumes to see improvement as all of my other intolerances have gone completely over the past couple of years after gradually getting used to different foods again.

These vegan schnitzels contain wheat protein which is completely safe for me to eat and only partly contains soya protein which is also safe for me to eat in small amounts. They were so yummy and I almost couldn't tell them apart from real schnitzels. I haven't had canned tomato beans in years. It's something that I used to enjoy so it would be nice to be able to eat them again from time to time.

Because I haven't been eating any legumes at all this week, eating this meal didn't cause me stomach pains, but if I was to have the same meal again tomorrow then it's likely that this would no longer be the case. It's best to take it slow. One step at a time. Allowing my body to get used to these foods on a more regular basis over time.

It's when I eat large quantities of legumes that I get stomach pains which is partly what made transitioning over to a plantbased diet difficult before I recognized exactly what was causing me symptoms (with so many vegan and vegetarian meat replacement products containing protein from various legumes in addition to other ingredients it was quite confusing), but eating small amounts of legumes seems to be OK. Or eating legumes only on occasion with some space of time in between.

I used to have an intolerance for so many other normal foods as well and I was able to include them in my diet again over time, so why should I not be able to include some more legumes over a bit more time as well? I feel like I'm at the last stretch of a very long journey now. Challenging my intolerances has been a frustrating proceedure because I would wind up in pain, but it's been worth it to get my life back and to be able to eat normally again. If I can overcome this last bit of the journey and recover from my eating disorder then my relationship with food would finally be completely normal again and being a vegetarian would be both easier and more pleasurable.

Incidentally, I know that it's not uncommon for people without any health complications to experience some reactions to eating more legumes than usual after transitioning to a vegetarian or a vegan diet for the first time and that this reaction will usually pass, but my stomach pains are not like that. When it's at it's worst I can't go out or move around, I'm stuck in bed for the rest of the day because I'm in too much pain. Which is very disrupting for everyday life. Thankfully, I know how to avoid this now and I'm getting better every day, eventually I'll be completely healed, or at least very nearly.

I used to fear that this illness might become embarrasing for me if I ever got in a relationship as I had never been in one before, but apart from the fact that I've been a picky eater, my boyfriend hasn't really noticed my illness much. He knows about it because we tell eachother everything and I would complain about being in pain occasionally, going off to bed early, but I'm much better today than I used to be a couple of years ago so it doesn't happen often and since we all feel under the weather from time to time, it's not that big of a deal.

The human body is quite fragile when it comes down to it. A complex system with many fine details to take into consideration and one that we have yet to understand fully, especially regarding our brains and our mentality, but in fact we also know little about complex details relating to the digestive system. When my doctor diagnosed me with this stomach illness, she couldn't tell me what had caused it and there was a limited amount of information about it in general which is still the case for a variety of illnesses. So I'm very grateful that this proceedure that was recommended for me worked, of first avoiding and then of gradually challenging food intolerances, and that I was able to overcome the symptoms over a time span of about four to five years. I've been ashamed of my illness, but in truth I'm very lucky, because it's something that it's been possible to recover from.

Which legumes I opt for makes a difference for me or even, whether they're canned or not. For example, I love canned green beans and I can eat those to my hearts content, but if I get the raw kind then I need to be more careful not too eat too many of them. I also still have an intolerance for cellery which is not a legume, but a vegetable. White canned beans are quite friendly to my system, but I need to proceed more carefully with black beans. I can have a small portion size of peas from time to time and also of chickpeas or tofu. Like, four to five falafel pieces or a few pieces of tofu maki on occasion as long as I don't eat other legumes during that time span, though I'm improving all the time. I remember how I couldn't eat onion at all for example and now we cook food using onions and garlic all the time and it's no trouble at all. Where there's a will there's a way I say and I'm going to keep going until I'm completely back to normal or as close as I can get. Both in order to make it easier for myself to be a vegetarian and also in order to be able to take part in all the joy's of being a vegetarian.

I also want to add that seeing as I live in one of the few countries in the world that will probably get through the current difficulties on a global scale concerning a lack of food and food becoming more expensive, I also need to address the fact that I am fucking privileged either way. I grew up in clothes from the thrift stores, but compared to children growing up in other countries I was still rich because Norway is such a good country to live in. Having an eating disorder can seem shallow in a way and it is, at least partly, but I don't want to have an eating disorder and I don't take anything for granted. That's one of the upsides to having gone through hard times. However, (sorry for mentioning the following again, it's just always going to be a part of what shaped me) my problems with eating, the trauma from abuse and past mental health issues- that's still nothing compared to what other humans have to go through in other places in the world. So now that my health is finally restored to such a degree, it really is time for me to be an adult! Maybe if I do my best in order to be a good person, appreaciate my privileged position and try using my life in the best possible way, that I could somehow make life better for those who are less fortunate than I am? It's enough actually, just to be in good health, to be safe and to have good people in my life. I also want to feel as though I am a part of society and that I get to do my bit somehow by contributing in some way. That's all that I really need though, in order to be happy. With our freedom of speach and all of our other privileges and rights and so on. Until other people are also as privileged, I shouldn't ask for anything else from life, not really.

Conditions are so bad in the world outside of my country that I made a donation today to the UN World Food Programme (WFP) eventhough I made another smaller donation to Unicef only a couple of days ago. I don't normally share proof of donations that I make to charities like the one beneath, but conditions are so bad these day's due both to the pandemic, the climate crisis and because of the war affecting Ukraine, that I want to inspire others to do the same if I can. People are starving and people are dying.

I think it's cute that after single donations one usually recieves a sweet thank you note, that makes me feel happy. Sometimes, depending on the charity, there's a share button on these confirmation pages, but as I couldn't see one I'll write down what the note said in stead. I'll also share photos from Shutterstock that I'm allowed to use as I don't profit on this website at all because I don't commercialize for anything or cooperate with anyone through this website. I actually spent quite a while in order to make sure that I could use these photos in this way. I can also share a receipt from the transaction.

The note said the following:

Nina, thank you for donation kr658.66 and joining us in the fight against hunger.

Your donation not only means we can feed one more child, but also that you're part of something much bigger.

We have up to 5,600 trucks, 30 ships and nearly 100 planes, on the move each day, delivering life-saving food to hungry children and families.

And our team just got stronger with you. With your help, we will do whatever it takes to end hunger.

Thank you again for your donation! Together, nothing can stop us.

Everybody is in different life situations so if one is only able to make a small donation, any donation at all is still helpful. I remember for example a period of my life where I could only afford to donate 50kr a month to Redd Barna, like seriously, because I could barely make ends meet for myself. After an entire year though, Redd Barna sent me a letter through my mailbox and it contained a really sweet note and pictures where they told me how much I had donated during the course of one year and how much it had meant. That made me feel different about it.

Maybe this is a somewhat awkward, but isn't it better to share this kind of purchase as opposed to flaunthing a new Chanel bag for example? Not to say that people who own beautiful things are bad, I own possessions that were unnecessarily expensive as well and I'm no better than other people, but I argue that sharing a kind of purchase relating to charity or showing pride in it could encourage others to do the same.

What if I started sharing 5kr every time I ordered an espresso from a cafe for example, or if I decided to start sharing my every meal at suppertime by giving single donations of a small amount, just think of what that would mean.

A lot of people are of course content with sharing a set amount of money each month to a charity that they like and that's just as well, but there are alternative methods and perhaps for someone with an unstable economy, freelancers etc, that they could be helpful. Single donations of an amount of personal choice is a flexible solution. The flexibility and element of freedom makes me feel better about it personally, so I really prefer single donations. That way I can give something in the spur of the moment when I feel a burst of sympathy. It could even function as a nice pick-me-up during a rough day. In stead of buying a treat for example, why not treat myself to the joy of helping someone who really needs it?

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