This is just something I wrote a long time ago, I remember feeling very happy with it and that I drew inspiration from an author that was part of an exhibition at an art gallery where I used to work in the past. Sadly I can't remember his name, but the thing that inspired me was how a lot of what he wrote appeared to be comepletely absurd. It was very difficult to figure out any meaning, but it also had a rhythm and it entertained me. This is what I wrote, a long time after I read the texts that inspired it. It was even on my old website, that's long gone now, but if any of my old readers are around you might still recognize it.
Join the others in the sun or stay in the darkness and flex
Create a box you’re comfortable in and in doing so remove any desire to think outside of it
Wear sweatpants to the store, to work, to bed
Buy prettier sweatpants to justify it
Swim the butterfly
Effortlessly
As if you’re dreaming
Smile at a random bird and pretend that the bird cares and that it likes you too
Deny yourself icecream
Choose yoghurt in stead and applaud yourself
Do your chores, always
Have you seen my reflection? I seem to have lost it
Perhaps it fell down the drain
I’m longing
Like glowing embers, I need you
As a friend
I am a butterfly
Choose candy in favor of drugs and feel ecstatic
Be genuinely good
Too much coffee will cause a stomach ache
I am a butterfly and I love the way it feels when someone cups their hand around me and create prison bars with their fingers
I love it in retrospect and applaud myself for being such a good inmate
I am a coral reef in the presence of another
An exception from life could be life itself
Picking flowers is more important than paying the bills
Believing that it is the other way around is a misconception
I wish that someone would go to the beach with me eventhough it's cloudy
We could have picked sea shells and touched things
And eachother
Others might judge us
I want to lay down on the grass with you
Simply because the idea got stuck
This was months ago
I am Peter Pan
Magic is real if you believe in it
If you tell the world that you’re not good enough it will believe you
If you tell the world that you can do anything, you will achieve more than you were capable of
Someone’s chasing you with a knife, you run a marathon
Love is still everything I imagined it would be
I CAN see the world through your eyes
As if I’m trying on a pair of glasses, but I’m handing them back to you
You’re not wrong exactly
Through your eyes there is no illusion, few reasons to cry and even less reason for dissapointment
But I am Peter Pan
Who decides what I am?
It's real if I believe in it
My happy ending
That's it, I hope you will enjoy it.
Love,
Nina